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Books by Kalamu ya
Salaam
The Magic of JuJu: An Appreciation of the Black Arts
Movement /
360:
A Revolution of Black Poets
Everywhere Is Someplace Else: A Literary Anthology
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From A Bend in the River: 100 New Orleans Poets
Our Music Is No Accident /
What Is Life: Reclaiming the Black Blues Self
My Story My Song (CD)
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three.
I choose to be a writer
Well,
I tell you for myself, I make a conscious attempt, I think I can
truthfully say that in music I make or I have tried to make a
conscious attempt to change what I've found, in music. In other
words, I've tried to say, 'Well, this I feel, could be better,
in my opinion, so I will try to do this to make it better.' This
is what I feel that we feel in any situation that we find in our
lives, when there's something we think could be better, we must
make an effort to try and make it better. So it's the same
socially, musically, politically, and in any department of our
lives.
--John William
Coltrane
I
was slow to commit to writing. When I graduated from high school
in 1964, photography was my first love and music my deepest
passion.
After
graduation I went on an eleven year odyssey in and out of higher
education which culminated in a business administration
Associate Arts degree from Delgado Junior college in 1975.
I
have never liked college. I perceived college as an extension of
high school from the pedagogical standpoint. Nevertheless, there
is no denying the importance of many of the experiences I had in
colleges.
First,
I was one of eleven "American Negro's" (eight of whom
were first year students and two of whom were sophomores) at
Carleton College in Northfield, Minnesota -- the mythic site of
one of Jesse James' last and most disastrous attempt at bank
robbery. Carleton was a great and expensive learning experience
that I quickly rejected.
Even
though I left at the end of the second trimester, while there I
had written a lot of poetry and a second novel which revolved
around the experiences of a desperate group of young Blacks at a
predominately White college.
During
this period I also developed a relationship with Esim Bozoklar,
a young student from Turkey. She inspired me to write a series
of numbered poems called, as best I can recall, "mavi gok"
which was Turkish for "blue sky".
Overall,
at that time, my poetic influences were: Hughes for content and
e.e.cummings in visual presentation (the breaking of works into
letters and the explosion of one word erupting from another word
or interrupting the word flow). Although I've lost most of my
work from this era, here are two poems which exemplify both my
state of mind and some of the cummings influence.
| no
entrance
the
vo
ice
might
y
voice
of
Go
d
visit
ed
me la
st
ni
te
it sa
id
"fuc
k
you" &
so
I tu
rned
ov
er
on m
y
stomac
h
that i
t
might be
easier/not
that
He ne
eded
it -
He
was real
ly
doing su
ch
a go
od
job al
ready! |
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[untitled]
those
good things there be that are
are
more surely killers more deadly lethal
than
any evil be
for
sometimes even dreams become
poisonous
& aspirations abortions of life
sometimes
the very hope amputates
sometimes
the better worsens
it
is not the envisioning of dreams nor
the
rise toward aspirations
only
the survival midst this all
that
can keep us
it
sometimes matters not that you fail only
that
you've survived it
somehow
is the resurrection more cherished than the climb
to
be the phoenix more surely is harder than ever the god
to be
more
straight more true
than
any glory ever |
In
addition to musicians such as drummer Art Blakey and Ravi
Shankar, at Carleton I was able to see and meet a variety of
influential people such as socialist Norman Thomas and members
of the budding White left organization SDS. Also important for
me was the opportunity to meet and talk with students from
Africa and other foreign places. I became a radio programmer
with my own jazz show on the college station. Carleton also
exposed me to an enormous amount of foreign cinema. Although I
never had any major desire to work in film, since Carleton I
have been an avid cinema buff.
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