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Books by and about Daisy Bates
Long Shadow of Little Rock
(Daisy Bates,1998) /
Daisy Bates Civil Rights Crusader from Arkansas
(Grif Sockley, 2005)
The Power of One: Daisy Bates and the Little Rock Nine (Fradin,
2004) /
Young and Black in America
(Julius Lester,1972)
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* The Death of Daddy
By Daisy Bates (1914-1999) The summers of the following years, for the
most part, were spent on our farm in eastern Arkansas where my
grandmother lived with a brown hound dog, an old gray riding
horse, a temperamental milk cow, and pigs fattening for winter
meat. Occasionally we would take a trip to other states, or I
would be sent to visit friends or relatives of my parents.
I was in my teens. On one of my visits away
from home my mother sent for me. My father had been taken to the
hospital. When I arrived home, the doctor told me it was just a
matter of time. Daddy was gravely ill. The bottom had dropped
out of my world.
One night Daddy told Mother to go home and
get some sleep. “Daisy will stay with me,” he assured her.
When Mother and the nurse had left, I stood
looking down at his tired dark face against the white of the bed
linen. I saw the wrinkles etched deep by a lifetime of struggle,
and I saw a stubborn chin and proud high forehead. I started to
cry, softly. He opened his eyes. “Don’t cry Daisy,” he
moaned. “I know I’m going to die, but-”
I started to protest, but his upraised hand
stopped me. He knew I knew, and to deny it would make
meaningless the honesty we’d always held to in our lifelong
relationship with each other. He said calmly, “I’ll be
better off.” I knew this was so. He had cancer.
I haven’t much to leave you, Daisy, so come
close and listen and remember what I have to say to you.”
I drew a chair close and place my hand in
his.
“You’re filled with hatred. Hate can
destroy you, Daisy. Don’t hate white people just because
they’re white. If you hate, make it count for something. Hate
the humiliations we are living under in the South. Hate the
discrimination that eats away at the soul of every black man and
woman. Hate the insults hurled at us by white scum--and then try
to do something about it, or your hate won’t spell a thing.”
“I’m listening to every word you say
Daddy, and I’ll try to do what you say. But rest--you must
rest now.”
He closed his eyes and shook his head
impatiently. “I’ll decide when I need rest.”
How I loved this strong man who all his life
had not been able to use his strength in the way he wanted to.
He was forced to suppress it and hold himself back, bow to the
white yoke or be cut down. And now that his life was ebbing, he
was trying to draw on that reservoir of unused strength to give
me a lasting inheritance.
“Daisy,” he resumed, “nothing’s going
to change all of the sudden, and any Negro speaking out alone
will suffer. But more and more will join him, and the blacks,
acting together will one day . . .”
His voice grew faint. I held my breath.
Starting afresh, he continued haltingly, “I remember the day
of your mother’s funeral. I went to the post office for the
mail. I had on my best dark suit. When I came out of the post
office, there were three young white hoodlums standing on the
steps. One of them said, 'Look at that dressed up ape! You live
here, boy?' When I didn’t answer, two of them blocked my path
and the other one said, 'I know what’s wrong, he needs
something red on!' He picked up a brush from a paint bucket left
there by a painter who’s been painting the brick foundation
around the buildings. He painted a red streak down the back of
my coat. Then they walked away, laughing. I stood there with
murder in my heart. I could’ve crushed the life out of him
with my bare hands. But I knew if I touched one hair on his head
I could be lynched.
“On the way home I met one of the deputy
sheriffs. I showed him my coat and told him what had happened.
He laughed and said, 'Don’t get so upset about a little thing
like that. They were just having a little fun. Turpentine will
take the paint out of your coat'.”
Daddy stopped talking and closed his eyes. I
just sat there, constantly patting his hard knuckles, hoping he
would speak again. He did. This time his voice, still distinct,
was softer than before but more labored.
“Sometimes,” he said, “you know later
when you should have died. I ought to have died the day they put
paint on my coat. I should have taken those guys and wrung their
necks like chickens. But I wanted to live--for what, I sometimes
wonder.”
I stopped patting the back of his hand, and
he drifted off into sleep. Looking back at him, I sensed he
would never awaken. It was now nearly daybreak. When the
Catholic Sister came into the room, I greeted her warmly. It was
the first time in several years that I had spoken to a white
person in a pleasant voice.
I walked out into the silent streets. The
grass, heavy with dew, caught the sun’s early rays. In most of
the yards flowers still bloomed, and in many, red roses. I
thought of another such morning years ago, and of the red rose I
couldn’t bare to pick. I knew like that rose which clung to
its branch in a last, flaming farewell, my father would die
before the end of the day. I did not cry for I realized that he
was at peace with himself for the first time in years.
As I walked along the streets taking in the
freshness of the early morning air, I knew that as surely as my
father was dying, I was undergoing a rebirth. My father had
passed on to me a priceless heritage--one that would sustain me
throughout the years to come. * * * *
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updated 3 October 2007 |