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To Hope For
By DuEwa M. Frazier
I’ve been alone for a long time
but I don’t count the days
I just live my life
knowing that one day I’ll have
the
insperience that I am suppose to
have
with you
you love me, es-pec-ial-ly , dif-fer-ent,
every……time,
as jill scott says
I want to feel that
I want to know that I don’t have
to be
a size 2 for you
I want to know that I don’t have
to have
long straight hair flowing down my
back
to make you feel that I am a true
beauty
that my natural beauty is
beautiful, to you
I want to know that you won’t
feel like less
of a man if I make decisions for
myself, or
that you are less of a man or a
provider because
your woman is educated and a CEO
you know?
bear with me
I don’t have it all figured out
the ones I admired, well some of
them have been
separated and divorced…of course
maybe that was
their destiny, or they didn’t
want it bad enough… or
they didn’t know the other
person well enough…or
someone
was imbalanced, mean,
abusive…etc., etc., etc.
which brings me to…no love is
100 percent perfect
I try not to read the statistics
on Black love, how it
fails at many turns
instead I just strive to read the
star dust road that
I walk
on hoping
praying , believing ….
that it will be different for me
different for you , different for
us
I’m hoping that when you let me
love you , that
you’ll let me talk to you in
sweet coo-ing tones
that soothe and heal
that you’ll let me make you a
hearty, tasty,
succulent,
from scratch, home cooked meal
I’m hoping you want an
empowering love that heals
that makes you feel, ‘damn, my
woman is all that…’
I hope you won’t get afraid-
when I change
when I rearrange
my mind, my spirit, my
inclinations, my
physical frame
when our babies call my name,
because they’re hungry
and need
their mother’s warmth…I hope
you’ll stay secure, just
the way you are
I’m hoping that your mama likes
me, that you like her,
that you respect her and admire
her for all she’s done
for you and if you know your
daddy, I’m hoping you’re
cool with him too , it just makes
things easier b-cuz
when we have our little ones,
you , hopefully, won’t pass on
resentments to them
that you have for your previous
loved ones
I’m hoping love, that when we
lay, it is a spiritual
insperience, not just
a physical one, I’m hoping that
you know that I’m a
picky woman, I don’t do this
with just
anyone, so I’m hoping that
you’ll feel that you’re
special and
that we…can do this…no matter
what statistics say
I’m not going to say that our
love will be an earth
shattering revolution,
that we’ll move planets, or
become the epitome of
Black love
that I’m an exception and
you’re the acceptance I’m
looking for
I guess , I’m really hoping that
our love works for
us, and in some small
way, that we’ll be grateful for
our time and just
be…who we are…together posted 2003
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